I have a question for you?

I'm 30, I've been suffering of panic attacks for a year. Fortunately enough, now I'm healing with the help of my psychiatrist. The problem that was facing was that every time I fantasias about women sexually I would get a disturbing feeling about Jesus or my parents watching me having sex. I still don't feel confident/comfortable fantasising even with medication from my psychiatrist because of the disturbing feeling that something might manifest in horrible way. I have a hard time getting with women younger (very attractive) because I get nervous and afraid this disturbing feelings might pop out. Thus, I've only being with gigolo women and even then I'm always in the look out of this interfering thoughts. The only time I feel great is when I stop thinking about sex and that's almost impossible because I have needs like every person in this planet. What would you do if you were in my situation?